Stories in my life...

demolition of pudu prison

2010-06-23T10:40:00.000+08:00

A para frm wikipedia on introduction of our pudu jail-"The Pudu Prison was built in 1895 as a prison in Malaysia near the centre of Kuala Lumpur. It was used to house criminals including drug offenders and was a location for administering corporal punishment by rotan caning. The canings were administered in a special "caning area", so marked, not inside the building but in the grounds. It is no longer used as a prison and while it was once open as a museum, it is currently a police station and can be viewed only from the outside. (A clear view is obtained from the monorail train between Imbi and Hang Tuah stations.) Currently, it serves as a day-holding facility for prisoners attending court hearings." Pudu Prison a.k.a Pudu Jail was built by the British in 1895 as a prison in Malaysia in Kuala Lumpur area and it had once displayed the world's longest mural.

This could be another landmark reminding Malaysians and tourists of the place, where local&foreign prisoners and prisoners of war from Britain, Australia, New Zealand, and Japanwere once held during World War 2. However, there's decision to tear down the 114-year-old prison made by gov which studied the matter and decided that it's not a heritage site and will not be turned into one. no effort being shown by gov in retaining part of the historic Pudu jail, num of objections frm various authorities which would like to preserve for posterity tho.

Despite public objection to the citys historic landmark being destroyed, demolition work continued for the project, aimed at easing traffic congestion in the area with construction of an underpass. The road expansion project costing about RM83 million will enable motorists to bypass the crossroads next to the old prison.

Besides that, gov has another plan of developing with UDA Holdings which it will becomes a mixed development zone would include a transit centre serviced apartments office spaces recreational areas hotel and commercial spaces that generates profit.

the moment watching the pudu jail being demolished whn passing by last nite, sad and regret as i can expressed and no intention to stop my walk. as own point of view, isnt a heritage much more valued than developing? anyway, there's a fact to be.

cloudy days ahead

2010-06-21T11:11:00.005+08:00

hm...seems not a really good day for me on early morning...got the sense at a sudden last nite that i will be receiving the result today...as usual, opened my mail accounts whn reached, received an email which my application failed due to the feedback of interviewer need to improve english language after asking for the reason of failure. hm...feel bit down and unfair to me frankly after get this feedback. i thought the reason of failure will b my rude attitude when keep shooting by the interviewer on the same matter during the directors' session and i felt frustrated on answering them anymore. get scolded by mum bcoz of my temper whn telling her the reason of the result and the interview conversations. doubting: M i really so easy to let ppl read into my mind thru expression?sigh-iiiing...

well,it's just felt like i quite 'fan jian'(chinese) on the deed done. reject a company that i dun really want a week ago and being rejected by the co i want a week after. has a stronger determination to seek job in spore after receiving this result...just like msg/hint/guide given frm god whr should i lead to...u give,n take away from me..which yr going to give sth new into my life? anyway,further on depositing resume process to some interested companies been searched in kl n spore..wish myself luck...i need a career,i need money to survive,need to think for my future...just put aside the other matters at this moment now..

'when u believe there's good,it'll be good'..cloudy days will be away....

fei lou n fei poh trip???

2010-05-21T23:03:00.000+08:00

ok,did sth crazy...v had our sing k session on wed nite and had made it for 8hours non stop!!!!marvelous!!!haha...there's a special n abit abit...hm...how to describe the situation?abit bit chaos..there's a cake delivered to our room(sing k package taken) n suddenly made our mind to celebrate khien's bday earlier...n bit out of control v get the cream frm the cake n 'helping' each other to make up on face...ends up 4 of us became kitten's looks....yes v all did enjoy on this session besides jacky enjoyed his sleeping time thr.....

thinking of the end of the stories?definitely not!!!! we had our lunch together with diff gang of ppl get together...-weiqi,susu,khien,elwes,petai(peter)ng n jacky(hvn get a 'special' name for him yet tim)..had the food tht v like:- butter milk chic,marmite bones, sizzling toufu, mongo chic...yums nice lunch?cheras~klang~tg malim~ipoh...fetched 2kee siao guy to ipoh n make our journey all just act like kee siao....dinner at tg malim.loves the 'yuet gong hor' so much.....yums....so miss it...n finally be home!!!yea!!!

joined the 2 kee siao guy ipoh makan trip with the dimsum and tea time @starbucks....n v really hm...bit bit make our reputation spoilt...keep laughing keep nonsenc-ing...n it makes us feel full?haha....n there's a name of this 5 ppl called as fei lou fei po gang....5 of us also love to eat...love to seek nice food....waiting for the following nice makan trip in future ;)

nonsence-ing

2010-05-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

2weeks left to grab all notes into my mind...physically n mentally stress have...everyday busy n rushing of works,handling those stupid matter which really examining my EQ and really just would like to get resolve by way else...n fighting with the nite time left for studying....n ofcoz a cup of coffee at least for everyday..;) every moment every min i have is a treasure...will i get crazy soon?thinking so...too much stress on myself which made me emo&cry easily lately...sorry guys which made trouble to u all...i knw u guys try to cheer me up yet this my problem to get away frm the nervous n scare..frankly,i stil rmb the advices tht seek frm tian hou temple...i knw i need a stronger will on my determination to go through...i want to overcome it which believe that my will can affect to my fate instead controlling by others.yet sometimes..i will think of giving up while the time migraine&gastric come together(fragile?)lol.law of attraction: i will be a strong spider,i can beat all these down n get wat i want..i want to pass my exam.i want to achieve wat i planned for my future.

would like to participate the star walk...but...nvm,there's a chance for following yr,missed twice tho...cant wait for sing k session,chilling out after exam...yuhoo!!!!!excited on that le...tho bit bit sua ku...;P

pain....should i have strong feel on this?i dunno..the moment decision made n everything seems controlled by u instead of me,i have disqualified to say so...i not dare to look back n just keep looking forward to get some way to resolve. in fact,im not those gal type which will keep crying,sad n ask u think twice for breaking up matter. wat should i response when yr fren try to explain on behalf of u? 3months past leh.significantly,u have no confident and trust me. do u ask for my view when making decision not to involve and get me apart frm all these n bear by yrself?

sometimes....i really just wish to get an ordinary life instead of excitement all the times...just a simple yet interesting life..this is wat i want....im really not those mind with complication....happy with family n frens thts all... 'shua xin ji' really....sure lose....basically,i will just announce u as winner...'jin shui bu fan he shui'...dun kacau me la....

没标题的部落

2010-04-13T22:36:00.001+08:00

没什么特别的东西记载,却只需要一通管道让我发泄这无形的压力情绪,压抑得让我开始喘不过气了...太多无法确定的事情还需要谢谢去解决,尤其是自己未来的日子..自己的命运掌握在自己的手里,每一步踏进社会里的路都得三思而行..不同的选择也必定造就完全不一样的人生.生命中不可承受之情，就在于人生没有重来的机会啊。

考试的压力存在也开始明显成形了已无法去忽略了也不能再逃避什么了...现在的我是迷茫地,无从开始..虽然有时候的我拥有冒险家的精神, 只可惜永远在学业上都派不上场. 习惯性逃避习惯性懦弱习惯性地害怕... 在我人生里,什么都不怕就是怕考试和感情方面...眼泪也只是用在考试..可笑吧? 近来围绕着我的思绪都是我是否选择对的道路而行...朋友们想不透为何我会选择行政秘书这科,是因为我的性格吗?曾经的它让我觉得蛮挑战性的,让我拥有个奋斗的目标..而现在,它确实压力的泉源,也许犹如说的,之前的工作范围和吓坏了我...毕竟我是先学跑和跳并不是走和爬....坦言地,我还是喜欢工作上给我的挑战...老天爷爷,虽然有点点临时抱佛脚且贪婪,希望您可以听见我夜夜地祷告..让我拥有更大的勇气和信心走下去...虽然我知道我拥有的幸福应该知足了..........

觉得做人累了就看看.....

2010-04-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

学会沉默　　
有时候，你被人误解，你不想争辩，所以选择沈默。本来就

不是所有的人都得了解你，因此你认为不必对全世界喊话。却也有时候，你被最爱的人误解，你难过到不想争辩，也只有选择沈默。全世界都可以不懂你，但他应该懂，若他竟然不能懂，还有什么话可说?那么，不想说话，就不说吧，在多说无益的时候，也许沈默就是最好的解释。
　　
至少平静　　
在你跌入人生谷底的时候，你身旁所有的人都告诉你：要坚强，而且要快乐。坚强是绝对需要的，但是快乐？在这种情形下，恐怕是太为难你了。毕竟，谁能在跌得头破血流的时候还觉得高兴？但是至少可以做到平静。平静地看待这件事，平静地把其他该处理的事处理好。平静，没有快乐，也没有不快乐。

不要想如果当初　　
人生是一条有无限多岔口的长路，永远在不停地做选择。如果只是选择吃炒面或炒饭，影响似乎不大，但选择读什么科系、做什么工作、结婚或不结婚、要不要有孩子，每一个选择都影响深远，而不同的选择也必定造就完全不一样的人生。生命中不可承受之情，就在于人生没有重来的机会啊。如果当初如何如何，现在就不会怎样怎样。。。这种充满怅然的喃喃自语，还是别再多说了吧。每一个岔口的选择其实没有真正的好与坏，只要把人生看成是自己。独一无二的创作，就不会频频回首如果当初做了不一样的选择。

保持单纯　　
因为思虑过多，所以常会把自己的人生复杂化了。明明是活在现在，却总是念念不忘着过去，又忧心忡忡着未来；坚持携带着过去、未来与现在同行，你的人生当然只有一片拖泥带水。而单纯是一种恩宠状态。单纯地以皮肤感受天气的变化，单纯地以鼻腔品尝雨后的青草香，单纯地以眼睛统摄远山近景如一幅画。单纯地活在当下。而当下其实无所谓是非真假。既然没有是非，就不必思虑；没有真假，就无须念念不忘又忧心忡忡。无是非真假，不就像在做梦一样了吗?是呀，就单纯地把你的人生当成梦境去执行吧。

控制情绪别浪费了
今天的你，是不开心的你，因为有人在言语间刺伤了你。你不喜欢吵架，所以你离开；可是你只是离开了那，却没有离开被那人伤害的情境，因此你愈想愈生气。愈有气，你就愈没有力气去理会别的事情，许多更该用心去做去想去处理的事件，就在你漫天漫地的心烦意乱之中，被轻忽被漠视被省略了。因为，你只是一心一意地在生气。在情绪上做文章，这是对自己的浪费，而且是很坏的浪费。毕竟，生气也是要花力气的，而且生气一定伤元气。所以，聪明如你，别让情绪控制了你，当你又要生气之前，不妨轻声地提醒自己一句：“别浪费了。”

悄悄悄悄地回归平静　　
曾经有一段时间，你心情低落，甚至懒得拉开窗帘，看着窗外的阳光。因此你当然也忘了去看看，窗台上那一盆每天都需要喝水的百合花。如此不知过了多久，总算有一天，你度过了心情的低潮，同时也想起了你的百合。天啊，可怜的花，它还活着吗？你战战兢兢地拉开窗帘，却见它迎风招摇，花颜可掬。原来在过去的这段日子里，你虽然忘了喂它喝水，老天却没忘了以雨露眷顾它呢。许多事物悄悄地在你的视线之外进行，而且悄悄地安排好了它们自己。天生万物，天养万物，一切其实无须担心。。。

你只要做的就是做好自己，不留任何遗憾。。。足矣！！！！

giving up~~

2010-03-22T01:19:00.005+08:00

giving up-just like a warning/signal telling me the things which happened ard me these days....usually, the principe that i used to persist to the last moment i have until it really needs to be certified...i would have a mind that is it really no other solutions can be solved instead of giving up?

isnt fate depend on us(認為只有自己才是自己生命的主人)????????y.....our future really couldnt be resolved by our own?no blaming to others...just only can describe this type of difficullties as shen bu you ji....this life calls so...frens who are in trouble, i only can know n do nth here...just let them keep frustrated,sad n scratching their head on troubles...feel useless sometimes eventhough knowing tht im not supergirl which everything i can settle...my fren has to give up his studies&going to overseas for working bcoz of some big troubles keep happening....which he really wish to cond his study and he feel so resist to leave everything here....

giving up as a barista that a job im really interested at due to some reasons..this is the option i can do if comparing with keep arguing with mum and aunty bcoz of this.....actually they knw i really impossible keep sitting at home and studying there...im not really understand the reasons mum keep not allowing me to do this n that lately...whr is my mum who gives me alots of freedom gone?keep arguing when comes to those stuff,keep giving up those i like to do....these r the sources of frustration come frm yet i can do nth..

option of giving up-should i conf further the 4last ICSA papers???becomes my contradiction rather than an aim as b4...just get a feel of giving up...........

is it the rational option of giving u up?should i really angry at u instead of giving u chances have those unreasonable reasons to hurt me rite?or shall i really have a talk with u as the step i should move forward 1st as frens suggest me?should or shouldnt i???y the things looks like simple yet quite complicated and couldnt get the source of pro, i really no idea to settle it....n realised act get the feel towards more than wat i think b4...tear really drops for these nites after have a clear pic frm beginning til the end..not dare to tell anything about u n me to frens as the way i always release to, they quite angry on this...better keep silent ba and just let it gone...anyway,wat in my mind appreciate those happiness u given me rather thn this matter.............no longer keep sorry and saying yrself too bad to me pls~~~

New chap of months~march

2010-03-03T00:05:00.001+08:00

Finally ends of feb n approaching to another mth which there’s quite lots of changes on me.

A new mth, new env, new career/study prospects and almost everything gonna be change. Unemployed (giving cutter fish to boss for eating) to be a part time student status…going to get into kl life(hustle&bustle)…seeking for part time job…it may sounds llike abit ‘bai ga lui’ and doing nth here beside stil studying,yet this is a golden chance to think twice on wat I want to do in future….

Ljmu convo just held on last sun.. really attended it with an exhausted n sleepy look bcoz of the penang trip the days b4, rushing bck frm penang n heading to kl on the day b4… felt regret to let myself on this look..haha. feeling great to meet u guys there again although left elwes amg us…the moment we are meeting.just felt that we are really awake frm uk dreams n standing on real world now..too crowded n really hard to get friends yet stil memorable to me…thks for the buddies attending n the celebration at the same nite.

Jing yein,yr going to leave on 15th …waiting u at this year end n we hang out again tht time…rmb my souvenirs(many kiwis to me)hehe…I love them so much…n also love u…do take very good care,all the best n really enjoy the life that u want there…it must b a great experience!!!dun let pui mun n I get a green hat ah,but red hat stil acceptable le..haha… …rmb rmb rmb miss us o….

Instant noodle relationship ends…lolx..i knw actually stil owe quite some of u an explain…I just can tell u as to date tht I stil rmb whn yr asking…lo mazi,susu…no worry,can said 90% version u heard lolx…no worry of me,it will b ok for me although stil bit down n sad n wat he said actually really let me got a feel on slapping him n act like a stupid on overall. susu, read yr blog..yaya,agree.tho really wish love can be settled with either love/not love, but really as the favourite song we love "没那么简单” really not such easy yet not complicated too..'看到她好像没什么似的，还是傻傻的，开开心心的' is the best way i think to further on my life..
At this moment, I dun think I really can trust any abt love and relationship (jing yein,u knw wat’s goin on le just getting serious now only.aiks)Yet, it doesn’t mean I can get away frm this fault after thinking twice. It may the problem on telling him frankly wat im thinking at now. Release would be the much better option that hating..it enough just to rmb wat good u have given me.would respect to this decision and just accept to cond be fren as he wishes to do. No point on blaming but 及时行乐,.
Lo ma zi,I knw yr more down than me now, since it had been together for long time.dont forget u stil have us neither telling not to be so sad.sometimes, it may better not to know the ans instead of knowing,..the fact may cruel to own. y not to let own leaving with the hapinesss tht left rite?as Chinese proverb,”new doesn’t coming in if old doesn’t goin to leave”,get a new lou dou for me soon..k?hehe..
everything gonna be fine..i believe ;)

sagittari~ian

2010-03-02T17:48:00.000+08:00

found it n would like to share here: hm...feel quite comfort and accurate with wat describing(those highlighted parts) on me here...look at it whether it also works on the ppl who also sagittarius ard u??check it out..;)

射手座
　　
　　
　　射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么，但是她一直都很清楚，她不想要的是什么。
　　
　　她总喜欢做幕后的看客，冷冷地，静静地看着一切，在她眼里，一切都在她的意料之中，她并不觉得有什么是新奇的，如果她表现得新奇，那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人，永远置身事外。
　　
　　你不要责怪她冷漠，这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬，随时竖起自己身上的刺，但她的刺不会伤人，她只是用来武装自己。
　　
　　她不敢要太多的爱，她怕享受完爱之后，剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时，她不但不会欣喜，反而会惊惧地逃走，她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱，如果你得到她的喜爱，那是因为她已经知道如何面对，如何回报了。
　　
　　她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。
　　
　　她懂得爱人，但她不习惯爱人，她知道爱往往伴随着恨，而恨，是太沉重的伤痛，也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛，也就懒得去恨，于是，为了防范恨与痛的到来，她只好选择不爱，即使爱，也是淡淡的，冷冷的。别怪她，她是真的不知道如何专注。
　　
　　她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她，她之所以选择虚伪，那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事，她不习惯承诺，也不懂得拒绝，她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过，只好令自己难过。
　　
　　她总是固执地认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，她将自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。她老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道，受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来，她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样，将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。
　　
　　
　　别以为她很洒脱，很多时候，她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感，都要细腻，但她不会让你知道，她明白，即使你知道了，也是无济于事。她的心是把握不住的风，她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。
　　
　　她不是不想平静，她只是找不到平静的理由，她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色，她只有不停地寻求，寻求自己最终的目的。
　　
　　如果她找到了，她会毫不犹豫地停下来，从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾，她永远也不会满足，她的追求永不停止。她的心再累，无法逼迫自己放弃梦想，梦想是她唯一的支撑点。
　　
　　千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅，她非常渴求完美，虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美，但，她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望，她会不可挽回地离开，即使她的心在滴血，即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命，她也绝不回头。
　　
　　
　　那个时候，你在她脸上所看到的，是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边，她的心也早就离你十万八千里，你看不到她的恨，但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。
　　
　　她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊，也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变，她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，千万不要迷惑，不管她看起来是多么的疯狂，她内心其实是冷静的，她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤，她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都变得疯狂。
　　
　　因为她觉得这是义务，也是权利，她是制造气氛的能手，她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来，但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.
　　
　　她并不如你们看到的那么快乐，同样，也不如你们看到的那么忧伤，只是，她忧郁时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当她快乐时，忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。
　　
　　在她的世界里，盛着的不是快乐的源泉，而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她，笑起来像一个孩子，你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但是，你若有心，你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤，还有她的眼底，竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候，才会完全地释放自己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助，她的彷徨，她的沧桑。
　　
　　她心里的，是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强，只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。

射手座男人
　　射手座的男人
　　射手座的图型，是个半人半马的弓箭手，用这样的图型来形容射手座的男人真是太贴切了。拿着弓箭的手永远瞄准远方，然后骏马一般向前奔驰，那就是“他”。

　　射手座的男人兴趣很多，涉猎很广泛，但恐怕每一样都不会研究得很彻底。正因为他的兴趣广泛，跟很多人都可能有交集，因此他会有许多不同类型的朋友。有的朋友陪他聊政治，有的陪他打球，有的跟他一块作生意。他很忙，很少有射手座的男人会给人一种闲着没事做的感觉。尤其当他突然对什么新鲜事物发生兴趣的时侯，可能全心投入好一阵子，其它的事情（包括你）全被暂时抛在脑后去了。

　　当你刚开始跟一位射手座男人交往时，会有一段蜜月期——你是最让他感兴趣的人。之后，你是否能让他保持热度，就得看你的本事了，因为让一个射手座的男人把心思长期专注于谈情说爱上，的确是很困难的事。

　　他是个绝对的乐观主义，心中有无数远大的理想，却经常容易忽略眼前的问题，因此常在加速向前冲的时侯，一不小心就栽到水沟里去了，在他身边的女人偶尔提醒一下他的粗心是很好的，但如果在他对你高谈阔论他远大计划时，泼他一盆冷水，那就真是让他讨厌极了。其实，你真的不必太过担之他的“安危”，因为乐观的射手座男子，并不容易被一些小挫败击倒，反而事实的教训会帮助他成长，让他下一次小心点。

　　很多射手座的男人都有点“不信邪”，当你严厉的告诉他什么事不可行的时侯，他却偏要试一下才甘心。我不知道你碰到这种情况了没有？如果有，请千万不要落井下石，在旁边说风凉话，你当心他会恼羞成怒哦！最好换一种方式，你可以说：“你做的比我原先预计的好多了，你真有一套！下一次只要把…改一下，保证万无一失。”

　　他肯定会觉得你太够意思，太了解他了。射手座的男人很少真的觉得沮丧。万一不幸发生这种情况，当然就是你表现的时侯啰！

　　很多人说射手座的男人花心，其实我倒觉得应该说他是很喜欢跟很多女人真心交往，花言巧语的欺骗不是他的方法。前面我就说过，他是很容易与人发生交集的，对女生当然也是一样，一旦他感觉跟某个女生有些投契的地方，他就会很愉快，很真诚的付出他的友谊和感情。其实射手座的男人愈成熟，就愈希望找到一个真正与他心灵相投的伴侣，只可惜他们多半都不是细细观察，慢慢投入的类型，因此总是很容易开始，很容易失望，于是很容易结束，射手座的男人很少会存心始乱终弃的。

　　就像是一壸茶倒满了很多杯子，你能说哪一杯不是茶吗？对每一个人他都很真诚，如想要真正拥有他，只有把自己变成个超级大杯子，让他把所有的茶全倒进来啰！

　　首先，你要兴致勃勃的听他说远大的计划，偶尔提醒他一些细节，让他惊讶你的智能。

　　第二，你要会陪他玩，多数射手座男子对户外运动都很有兴趣，当他带你去参加社交场合时，千万别摆张老k脸。

　　第三，射手座男人很爱跟朋友辩论，你要很感兴趣的听，然后在适当时机帮个腔，使他理论立于不败之地。更重要的是，千万不要限制他的自由。对于多数射手座的男人来说，自由是他们的宝贝，“不自由毋宁死”，他爱你是真的，愿意和你厮守终生也是真的，但是他不会因此放弃他追求自由的权利。射手座的男人，绝不是可以被拴在腰带上的丈夫，这一点你一定不要忘记。

　　射手座的男往往不会详细的向你报告行踪，尤其是事前，他更不会一副征求你批准的态度。如果你东问西问，他很有翻脸的可能。

　　你愈给他自由，他愈坦白。

　　有时侯射手座男人的直率也会让人有点受不了，他的直肠子有时会伤你的心，有时会让你下不了台。如果想要愉快的相处，你必须学习适应，而且欣赏他不会拐弯的坦率性格。

　　当然你也有自由发展你的世界。他通常忙碌的没时间去限制你。想要欺瞒一个射手座的男人，是件很容易的事，但是如果让他发现，将会造成无法弥补的裂痕， “真诚”是他最重视的相处之道。他会尊重你的自由一如尊重他己的一样，你会有很大的空间发挥自己的事业和兴趣。但是我仍然建议你多方面尽量配合他，否则他什么时侯掉进了别人的情网你都不知道！

大日子~一个好开始 wuhoo~~

2010-02-20T00:30:00.001+08:00

we're in wuhoo yr now~~~happy tiger yr!!!whee...bck frm kuantan&kl trip..has been fully utilised my holiday..watched big soldier, 72 tenants of prosperity n percy jackson all in at once...phew~~ n N N..i went to kpg berserah instead going cherating since the time only allows me to choose either 1..so,kpg berserah was the 1 since it took much shorter time...really has a nice view thr,just bit regret get more time 2 search for the 'pondok'&fun at the beach...stil the same, photos will b uploaded as soon...haha...n felt happy can fun crazily with those little cousins..suyen,i think i knw y u called me as 'big children' sometimes

n the trip has been cond with kl at the 2nd last day,we has shopped at 1utama for the whole day once bck frm kuantan...n get 1 formal(my 1st clothe) among all those parties clothes frm forever 21~~haha...

finally finally, reached ip by 2day noon n rushing to attend frens bbq reunion...it's felt grateful able to meet up almost all the old frens (frm other primary schools as well)...n the party times will b cond for this weekend...haha...goin bck for work on mon n N N again last day will b on 25th!!!hahaha...penang n convo will coming up too...end of feb with hustle n bustle?haha....

N..hm...yen, actually would like to tell u here d..anyway,the call tht day covered some of yr curiousity?haha... offcially start on 1st dy of cny lo..adv will b thr's no pro on both families side le, quite giving me freedom n respect as wat i wish not sticky n act both of us keep busy with own programme with frens(this is the point i believe i able to make the balance amg frens,family n us)haha ...will b long distance relationship..i think this relationship will b giving me an extra factor on making decision going bck to kl for my further career base? only intro to u guys (esmee n others) when stable le k?(u met him so many times b4,can skip intro? ;P) feel bit tension whn thinking wat he wish to get stable n more longer relationship,felt like im really like a wild horse,uncontrollable...m i making the right decision???

happy tiger yr

2010-02-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

just dropping down here to wish all my frens happy cny ;)

rand0m p0st~~

2010-01-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

忍不住想说出来

昨日几位同事在办公室提及他们的岳母是多么地肮脏麻烦,听了他们的埋怨论后(没法子,他们都站在我的座位范围内) 得知其实是患上普遍的老人痴呆症...无奈他们的嗓子有点点大,真的听不下去了,最终跑去另一边继续工作...不置可否任何批评..只是本人还是有稍稍生气一下...

不觉得很过分吗?岳母也是你的长辈啊,最可恶的是,自己的亲生儿女也是一直骂母亲,不给他吃这么多,稍微用厕太久,母亲情不自禁拉屎,他也不想啊...母亲老了生病了,就要得到这样的对待?!!是否想过,你们小的时候,同样的情景,他们都是无怨无悔地处理后善. 也许该释怀..毕竟这已是现有社会的病态..可是我还是觉得..无论长辈以前对你多坏,他们还是长辈..也许也做了许多让你生气的事情...其实他们的年纪越大,他们越期望儿女们可以听一下脚步陪陪他们,去聆听他们的心声,多给予关怀而已...也许这一切都虚伪...其实只要有那一份用心,便做到了..这些变成微不足道了,当你回想的时候..

在这后想起即将来临的毕业典礼日正巧也是公公逝世五周年.他们都来不及出席...希望他们能在不同的国度与我分享这一刻..虽然仍接受不到你们的离世即使几年过去了...铭记不忘早上普通毛病傍晚公公就逝世,婆婆等着我考试完毕,让我见最后一面那刻..对不起不曾探望你们在身不由己情况下..对不起我以往任性我行我素的性格..对不起

fav song~

2010-01-23T23:24:00.001+08:00

嬉笑打闹拥抱
留下了那么多开心合照
互相取暖依靠熬过了最低潮
一起生活也一起埋
怨过走过最好与最糟
我在心里想的不用说明你知道

晨昏日夜颠倒这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑没有人去打扫
感情很微妙再多付出
也好再多关心都徒劳

爱从来就没有固定的轨道
它最后停在哪里谁知道

我的难过是如此低调
因为不想打扰我在寂寞的墙角
努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好我想你
一定会选择假装不知道
只怕我自己的掩饰不够好

晨昏日夜颠倒这房子突然没从前热闹
散落一地微笑没有人去打扫
感情很微妙再多付出
也好再多关心都徒劳

爱从来就没有固定的轨道
它最后停在哪里谁知道
我的难过是如此低调
因为不想打扰我在寂寞的墙角
努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好我想你
一定会选择假装不知道
只怕我自己的掩饰不够好

我的难过是如此低调
因为不想打扰我在寂寞的墙角
努力的对自己好
你用微笑回报朋友或情人不重要
我的悲伤是如此低调傻子才会哭闹
就算你发现也好我想你
一定会选择假装不知道

难到是我对我自己不够好

likes this when listened on it at the 1st time...seldom can get nice chinese song recenly..yet this, it nice for me n would like to share this here..frm nicholas -低调

1 of the para..just like reflecting the exactly wat i would like 2 say out in a day with enough braveness on myself...everything will be alright...i stil believe so...

photos~~

2010-01-17T23:03:00.002+08:00

time to backlogged and backdated for the photos after missing awhile from here...here you go..yen,finally updated about belfast lolx!!!whee~~

miss my multi-purpose knife...gave to sin zyehn due to forgetness to get his souvenir during the trip...

1 of the shopping malls..likes to hang around here for shopping,watching movie etc...

types of dried chiilies used to sell in ireland during the festival

the airport which brought me to belfast....stil rmb the day i reached on this land and the day i left here...and how the feeling was....

if not mistaken,it's parliament...hoho...

ulster-part of belfast...it sth like our village which we called in Msia...traditional and conservative approach could be used here ;)

Queen's Uni-the famous and oldesr..n can get exemption and disct by applying master with tarc adv dip o....

beef noodles with hk style..it's really yummy..

p/s: due to the suprises given, couldnt get any big feast of the seafoods and japanese food photos for u guys...didnt bring the camera out...yet,stil the freshness of crabs, 'lai liu har'....unbelievable for the freshness.could u imagine,the seafood just caught on the morning and eaten by me on evening...how cruel m i?

dim sum in belfast....it will be more taste to Hk made since there're so many HK-ian there....the siew mai...my favourite....

my favourite season-AUTUMN~~

Guilin China Trip

2009-12-17T00:53:00.001+08:00

back frm guilin on sun...and the 8days trip ends so...how's the trip?nice?

hm..it just feels like back to the era of ancient. the visit places we went mostly were countrysides and villages, nanning is the 1 downtown for the whole trip...wat I learned frm this trip, DO APPRECIATE the TOILET and bathroom we have here...straggle and superannuated, poor hygenic conditions, the words used for sone villages. however, really feel syok with the cold weather here meanwhile the others wore like a 'bak zhang'? ends up everyone miss the weather thr now...hoho..and we also realise that we know nth about the real history of china even those common..really know very little, not enough 1/2 past 6...haha!!!how proud to announce??

have 2great tour guides..china tour guide has intro us an awesome drama-神医喜来乐. a chinese version comedy of mr bean..another drama couldnt imagine how hardworking we're watching with cousins&aunties in hotels- 莲花雨(reject tour guides to arrange extra programme for us& willing to bath after it finishes...crazy crazy!!) the another local tour guide-eric.hm...how should i describe on him? just 5 years elder than me, this is the most reason as i think can explain how he can interact&fun with us well..he just acted like a santa clause during the trip which always can get variety of snacks, biscuits, chipmores frm his bag...n get some return for him-we always get some innovative ideas to fool both tour guides esp eric until...they dunno wat to say&keep complaining we are too naughty..

tried a diff style of steamboat which intro by eric, kfc, mcd...n the things we found the time most- mineral water which promoted by leehom with diff horoscopes, snacks&milk tea by jaychou, beers by coco lee&last but not least chef hong's instant beef noodles!!!!yummy yummy!!! photos will be uploaded asap as well as belfast n kl~~will be bck with the nice pics...;) cheers~~

finally..finally

2009-11-26T01:16:00.000+08:00

finally..everything has gone to the end..wat i had done in uk just become memorable memories in my life...and im stepping on msia now...just like a dream..nice dream...miss Uk?maybe...really as dory said, u will only start missing uk at the moment yr in flight...i think so? however,there's no time for me to do so...just felt damn sleepy after waiting 18hrs overnite at airport b4 get flight frm london to hk. in total of 48hrs nvr sleep for the time arrived msia. could imagine how fury were I that time? just keep scolding 'fxxk' the time get down here..mayb because of the weather which couldnt stand for and the bad behaviour treatment that i faced for..just felt totally strange of the env...just thinking of london underground when tooking erl to putrajaya..thinking of how warm hiding under the duvet when it's chilling at outside.

slept 20hours until awake by aunty, because of mummy's phone order on worrying of my gastric.hm..couldnt break the record that i wanna reach for:30hrs...haha...there're 1ceiling fan,stand fan &aircond when sleeping in cousin's room...they worry whether im in coma since couldnt awake me for the welcome dinner &ends up get it as supper. felt funny when uncle told me about their worry last nite. feel sleepy and fishing all the ways at day and getting energetic when day getting into dark...im an owl!!!haha...

time to start seeking those food i miss alots tmr onwards..let's go!!!haha...going to meet some frens tmr...miss 'em so much..felt touch when received their calls today and chatting with them for so long...going to stay overnite with them&get a girls' talk...;P

read a news today..a korean model who just 20yrs old had commit suicided in paris..so sorry to hear this...1of my aunt just said y so stupid so easy to end her life like that?just change her job when contract ends if really couldnt stand on it..another aunt just asked me: want to jump off as well since u said wanna bang on wall when u knw gaining too much on weight? my ans was: i wun commit suicide because of this silly simple reasons. feel so stress on job,just change, get another 1.dislike that person's attitude,just ignore..gain on weight,no worry summore, terimee...easy arent?definitely wun choose this way to end my life beside fate..y stil choose the most suffer way to die since u felt so suffocated when yr alive?ends up: they laugh&said nth...

what to do???

2009-11-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

Suddenly dig this out frm files in pc..

咖啡闻起来很香, 很诱人但是喝不惯的就会说咖啡很苦, 很难喝. 爱喝咖啡的人就会觉得咖啡很香,有股入口即化诱人的味道,尤苦到甘，由甘至甜的感觉就像人生.

咖啡其实就像人一样, 有些人外表看起来彬彬有礼, 其实居心叵测. 有些人外表平凡, 但却拥有一颗善良的心. 你或许很相信你的一位朋友, 当他遇到困难时, 你尽心尽力的帮他. 可是当你遇到困难时, 第一个逃跑的就是他, 背叛你的也是他. 单纯的以为你待他好, 他也一样会待你好. 其实事实并不是这样. 没有雪中送炭反而落井下石. 因为朋友的背叛让你从此失去了信任别人的信心. 没了互信, 大家总爱互相猜测, 这样的友谊也不长久, 不只是友情, 我想爱情也一样吧!

朋友的背叛让你的心有了一道难以磨灭的疤痕, 这到疤痕到底何时才会痊愈?

可笑的是, 当曾经背叛你的人出现在你面前, 再一次向你求助时你依然狠不下心弃他不顾, 依然尽力帮他. 这是为什么? 要狠下心真的这么难吗? 明明知道他只想利用你, 想骗你, 你依然甘愿被他利用, 被他骗. 为的只是不想看到他那伤心的模样, 为的是因为他是你的朋友. 这样到底值不值得? 是因为我笨, 我容易心软吗?

Susu, rmb what u wrote before? Yea,I stil believe on the theorey:once be a fren, frenship forever. friendship couldn’t be ever if there’s no trust among. And the scar still in my heart. No matter how far im hiding on, I stil can receive her news. Susu, I think my mum really know me too well.even suggest me to get master with her in aus. Better kill me off. Im happy being an ostrich enjoying my life here tho, but it’s time for me to stand up and face it again rite?

My result has released, another again to prove sth to myself..again lack the 2marks to get second upper and my appeal has not been considered…and the stupid tarc officer keep calling me asked why not to attend the convo. I really fed up until would like to tell her, you are making international calls, im sleeping and no need persuade me to attend since Im not pass in excellent result wat. Anyway, wish to congratz to all frens who attended the convo last sat..Aiks..it’s time to tell myself don’t have any good qualification basis on study, better not to waste any money to afford on my further study. Isn’t? There’s an idea appear on mind lately. can I get another diploma on architecture instead further on maste? wish to do sth that I like and interested, it may get high possibility on many objection votes. I think I have too much freedom now & make me act so wild and irrational!

Happy hour here: aunt tsyen,hehe..hm..yr bday rite, couldn’t celebrate for u on that day tim(I think u also wont celebrate with me but someone else who important?fast fast get a 1 ;P). how about b4 or after is it ok for u? stil using the same num?will text u when im bck k?just let me know how do u think k? Esmei,lee mian,lady boss,u&ck,it’s time to treat me makan makan…yummy yummy….ellena ner,dun 4get out ipoh meet…no matter how it will be,must happy always o ;)

Til my turn for job hunting now lu…aiks…wish I could get nice job..mr lucky goes around, borrow frm ms tang&ms eng 1st…ekeke

msia land

2009-11-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

8days to go, I can step legs on msia land..hohoho!!!!going to sleep damn enough, eat alots…others?throw it away!!!hooray!!!sokyee, I admit im a hungry ghost din get any food at previous, but thn stil need bring me to seek for nice food ok?muahaha…

Abit feel retarded to leave again..really dislike those feel..aiks..will miss the collegues here.. the weather here too I think so?at least wun be a roast pig as in msia…3/4c has a totally big diff with 30c. which celcius yr prefer? thx for the caring esp when im sick. keep asking me not to back so earlier, staying here til next yr and arrange programmes&eating as more as u can before im leaving. (*ends up keep gaining on weight now…just slim down for the 1^st week of working..haiz…really wanna bang on wall!!!frens,do u stil recognize a pig when I bck to msia?)

thx for the great farewell too!!we went to the best known thai cuisine here and treat me really a big feast(*guess,how much it costs for?), actually we all very poor tho. the 2^nd time went this restaurant within 2months being here..rmb our secret,2k pound, im waiting for yr big feast in msia since couldn’t get a nice Japanese feast with u all when reaching the target soon…hehe… my pleasure to be working&be a part in this branch if compare to other branches..jack,elwes dun too envy thr, our branch let ppl criticized as an old folks home @.@ so u have a ‘bright future’ thr instead…love u all so much..special thnks dedicated to

Dory- manager who ex sot tarcian ‘07. She’s cute&really a nice people. Can crazy all the time yet very serious while there’s customer. Frankly, I also would like to stay as u asked me to do so…

Adrian- another new comers&nice people who also ex sot tarcian&just stayed nearby my house. Such coincident.haha. Really thx for yr accompany to get rid every nite, taught and helped me alots.

Crystal-another ‘sister’ here. Dunno wat words should be used to describe…anyway, nice to work with 3 of u…

Kin&soon- main chefs here who helpful.always cook nice food. I will nvr forget the instant noodles u guys cook for us. Haha

peter&others- feel grateful to work with u esp peter, the only 1 angmo, meet u at short time tho. ;)

Nvr forget how we fun during the times, how to run off like crazy ppl to get rid of buses, eat food during working, do whatever u would like to do..

In short,it’s really a happy working family!!

Post up the pics in belfast asap ya..but no guarantee o..i think seldom to update my blog soon after bck to msia..since im the kind of hardworking ppl…ekeke

sick@.@

2009-10-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

the thing i hate in my life...which let me feel like out of control,just lying on bed doing nothing that wish to do...cant fun..cant play..if sick,better kill me off directly its better than torturing me...

if gonna tell the reason i sick....will be unbelievable?food poisoning bcoz of the instant noodle....the feeling really very bad....feeling not well for whole day and at last keep vomitting the hour b4 finish working last nite....adrian asked me those symptoms i had and said it just totally same like dory, my collegue who get food poisoning also last week and get sick leave for 5 days.and wat i had eaten and the time for meal also the same...we are the last 1 who get the instant noodle...

stomach totally empty after keep vomiting for whole day food...no appetite at all for food now...better kill me off again...either feel wanna vomit once see whatever food in front / feel vomit after eaten...better not to waste food again...tried to get some light food,ends up only can lying on bed even sitting will let me felt so..haiz...headache,dizziness.,feel impotence.....i want my energy back and go for fun ah....not lying on bed ah,it's enjoyful sometimes to do so tho...want to get nice nice food with collegues ah...sick leave for a day has cause me 42pound gone....can i recover by tmr?no money can let me waste so...mr leng zai $,come bck to my side,ok?suddenly missing someone seriously, really wish the person could beside me now..again,it's a silly thought....im starting to think childish again...

i think i really not suitable to stay in belfast...seems like so many things since arrived here...nvm..countdown-ing going bck to msia now...

law of attraction~~BELIEVE

2009-10-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

i believe...sending strong positive msg to myself...sunny days ahead soon ;)

have to start for my new job tmr onwards, i believe everything gonna be fine ;)

finally get this book 'law of attraction' by michael j.losier in a cheaper price and for sure i bought!!!yupie~~~it's useful to me and suyen, cant deny isnt it?hehe....strongly recommend it...

will be my last day for holiday..no time for me wandering around...but i believe it will be interesting days for this coming month...^.^ lee mian, nvr 4get wat u said-our spirit:nvr give up!!!ya...everything gonna be fine,this is wat im telling myself now...flashing back every pictures in my pc~diploma,advance,liverpool and family&frens~~~it such memorable memories for me..miss grandma..i really miss her...and those who gave me many sweet and sour days although we ends up now just like an enemy. and i stil very dispute to hear any news about u...neither angry nor...sometimes too care of a person will just make yourself miserable...miss sokyee, pui mun u guys too,when is our next trip?miss the genting trip o...smelly bek,beh....always zat me until no day no nite but care me always...really long time din crazy with u guys ald....it's time to miss all of u ;)

thanks for my sweety mummy who really cheer me up&support me always..aunties,family members all called up, msn,fb-ing to persuade me to further my study on master...apa apa teknik semua pun keluar...just let me keep laughing on here... the main thing is,really let me felt touch u guys really know wat im thinking&worrying for eventhough nvr tell u all b4 since im so stubborn on it...just let me felt wanna cry tht day..told mummy wat is my plan for and ends for this persuading war for a week..if not my ears and eyes cond get tortured..

as wat i know frm sista, our house has renovated again&almost the furnitures get a new 1..even pillow,bedsheets, the main gate&windows everything...as wat mummy's reason~~welcome me home @.@ always given those weird reason...wondering could i recognise my home when bck to ipoh? besides that, thanks for waiting me back&home and then get for our family trip..thanks for giving me a warm family which nvr left me alone.....

wandering around~~

2009-10-15T22:14:00.000+08:00

another nice video to watch...dunno wat's going on me lately..just keep listening those sentimental songs(left all the R&B, hiphop songs behind)...abit moody...likes everything not going smoothly...

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gk2oPC7o1aw&feature=related

finally found this mv bck...like this song,touch and meaningful...seldom watch these sad songs mv, scare my tears will just drop out easily...but now...keep trying to watch, it still unable to make me cry out....suffer...just like a valcano will boom out anytime....i hate myself how to become so emo...emo until i couldnt recognise myself...get a haircut and get another new job..new env soon,cheer up myself and everything gonna be fine, i believe....i must....;)

fortunate/unfortunate

2009-10-02T22:08:00.002+08:00

it's the day should consider as lucky or unlucky? the time i awake on morning, found my right eyes red,swollen and look carefully on it, saw it like really abnormal as normal eye and different with those infections i had before. worried and called u up,susu and get an advice better go 2 get consultant frm doc.. feel scare and blur dunno wat should I do beforehand. get the student insurance card, money and hp then went to pharmarcy and recommended to nearest hospital( there's no clinic here, weird isnt?)belfast city hospital-nice visit attraction. @.@so many procedures b4 get towards a doc.. and need to wait at the A&E dept...(horrible dept after I felt so after IICU)geramnya...realised my insurance term has been expired few days ago meanwhile waiting there..gosh!!!i was wondering tht time, if really as wat the travel agents told us b4, 50pound at least u get a doc...spending over b4 start to work to earn money bck...

the another thing happened while waiting. get a called frm Ginza boss,said wanna hire me pulak coz there's a gal performance not so ideal after i get a job at another restaurant and will start soon...which should I choose?
Ginza: nicer pay, shorter working hours,the working place more far abit
HUngry rest: less pay, longer working hours have to work until 1am and walked bck alone

headache headache.....
till my turn finally after 1 hour has gone...a nice and pretty doc..haha...mood also better isnt?haha..after she gave me some consultancies, she told me so:"u have better eye vision for infected eye than yr normal eye'..swt....
after all over the consultancies and get the medicine, felt unbelievable when i asked her where should I pay(thought at least there's a payment counter). she just gave me a response like wat alieny language im speaking...it's funny for her expression!!!haha..she replied me so, it's free!!and u can come bck anytime if stil hvn recover..hooray!!!!!i saved money again...happy happy!!! after home, another freeze day hide myself on the bed with thick duvet and reading novel..nice rest day...whee~~~

flavour of song again...

2009-09-29T23:07:00.005+08:00

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨

跌倒了就不敢继续往前走

为什么人要这么的脆弱堕落

请你打开电视看看

多少人为生命在努力勇敢地走下去

我们是不是该知足

珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡

随着稻香河流继续奔跑

微微笑小时候的梦我知道

不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑

乡间的歌谣永远的依靠

回家吧回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃

就像我说的

追不到的梦想

换个梦不就得了

为自己的人生鲜艳上色

先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色

笑一个吧功成名就不是目的

让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义

童年的纸飞机

现在终于飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐

赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了

偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了

谁在偷笑呢

我靠着稻草人

吹着风唱着歌睡着了

哦哦

午后吉他在虫鸣中更清脆

哦哦阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎

珍惜一切就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡

随着稻香河流继续奔跑

kinda like this song esp its lyrics since listened to it 1st time....it really leads u to the way of positive and happy thinking is it?it's kinda useful for me once again lately, keep listening to it...i do really miss home seriously these days...wish everything will get better there before i bck....thx for ah bek's opinion, as wat u said, there's an ans in mind, it just need someone to support it actually...

stil rmb i felt excited few days ago when telling aunty about my plan for future after bck to msia and she agrees on it. yet, i think the plan should change now..my dream needs to change... as well as everyone happy and never regret to go through their own life...home is most important than money...

get this....

爱情

　　爱情有时候只需要一个眼神，就抵的过千言万语。

　　爱情的真谛我理解为：不顾一切的爱，爱的死心塌地，爱的痛彻心扉，爱的不顾一切。

　　我一直理解失去等于得到，当你失去这段爱情的时候，不要只想着悲伤，为什么不理解为是开始另一段爱情的开始，爱情亦是如此，生活也是如此。

　　爱情，谁都不能理解爱情到底是什么，只知道彼此喜欢，彼此欣赏，彼此希望成为彼此的唯一。记得爱过的人有这样一句话：爱是因为互相欣赏而开始的，因为心动而相恋，因为互相离不开而结婚，但更重要的一点是需要宽容、谅解、习惯和适应才会携手一生！我一直都很喜欢这句话，要想爱情的长久不是这样吗？

　　爱情的长久在于一方的死心塌地。

　　人的一生一定要经历一次轰轰烈烈的爱，才不会觉得遗憾。不管结果是什么，只要你付出一切的来爱，就不要后悔你所选择的结果，茫茫人海你我相遇是种缘分，无法与你走到尽头是你我缘分不够，竟然爱了就不要后悔。彼此祝福是最好的结束。

　　爱过，伤过，痛过，剩下的就是回忆。

　　生活

　　生活往往是不如意的，生活中有快乐，有不快乐，有顺心，有不顺心。

　　生活的真谛我理解为：生活是一种享受，不管是快乐，还是不快乐，我们都要学会享受生活，享受其中的快乐与不快乐。

　　生活也是一种态度，快乐的我们懂的享受，不快乐的我们也要懂的学会享受，人的一生很短暂，既然上苍选择了你来到这个世界，那么我们要做的就是享受这个世界给你带来的所有，快乐当作上苍对你的奖赏，不快乐的当作上苍对你的考验。

　　一种好的心态会给你带来不一样的命运。

　　我希望我身边所有的人，懂的享受生活，不要被你生活中不如意的事所打倒，我们要学会坚强，要学会寻找快乐。学会享受。

this is wat in my mind now....cheers, guys ;)

belfast~~amazing city ep2

2009-09-26T21:29:00.002+08:00

2nd day:

whoa~~such a nice day!!!can sleep until awake naturally!!!said no when Zhyen asking me to follow him to restaurant. it's a good day for exploring Belfast city with the travel guide and infor he get to me isnt?it's time to read&digest all the books, feels like getting to exam soon!!!lolx. it's really an amazing city to stay on besides liverpool(at least the people here wouldnt be a 'drunk ghost' at the night?). another thing realised, almost the Hk citizen getting around here. all the people I made frens with are frm HK. get dinner at an authentic thai cuisine restaurant-The Golden Elephant, a luxury restaurant being owned by HK citizen. I swear, I would never dare to step in if seeing any this kind of restaurant in UK. the food there really nice, and of course expensive too. keep listening to the songs we had always fun around-I gotta feeling, Hatin on the club etc when entering into the shops during shopping. really miss the moments~~

3rd day:

another exploring day with his aunt. went to St George's market and chose the crabs for our dinner. took the city sightseeing bus looking ard the city after some festivals and wandering around. tht's a nice flavour of choc&marshmallows crepe tasted here. after get some shopping, get dimsum for hightea/dinner. it feels familiar, traditional menu originated frm HK. miss the dimsum in Ipoh...nice seafood big feast&home-cooked soup for dinner/supper... how much big feast should cond after knowing I had put on weight in total of 7kg after liverpool,euro and london trip!!!terrible weight isnt?gosh..

4th day:

call bck to say happy birthday to mum in the early of morning...my mum beat with sis-i will forget her bday..this is wat she told me when i greet her @.@ actually...thanks to tech adv now-reminder..haha.mum told me some funny talks between Zhyen and his mum about me..he really funny until..dunno what should I say..really feel strange after nvr meet him up for few yrs..I think same to him too..excited to knw wat will happening next on during my days~~ ciao

belfast~~amazing city

2009-09-26T20:57:00.003+08:00

4th day in belfast..quite dramatic frm the day I reached here until today. this is wat I can tell if you're going to ask wat feeling I have to be here..hm...they do really take good caqre of me until dunno wat words I should use for to express my feeling..how u judge on it after reading the stories below?hehe..lucky?good or well?

1st day:
although really bad luck during the way frm London to Belfast, the station i should catch for my train through online booking is not available and need to further to another train station rushing up for my journey. being charged for my luggage overloaded although had scaled on it few times before to airport which shown less than 15kg!!! my flight was delayed & the time I reached here was raining @.@ how difficult for me to get the right way to lisburn. fortunately, he called me up few times once down frm the flight& given me the directions. I only rmb I had totally forgotten to get some souvenirs for him and his aunt during the trips which keep reminding by mum before that tho.get scolded when calling up my mum to tell so, and the most terrible thing is, she thought im stil in europe -.- (just rmb to sms me wat to buy for her always but forget wat i told her--my mum)

decided to give my multi-purpose knife which bought in Swiss(only thing suitable for guy in luggage ;P) and a bottle of dkny perfume for them since they really take care of me( ready a room, bed, duvet cover everything for me when I was stil in Liverpool, asked what I need& keep asking when I will arrive)..say bye to my multi-purpose knife because of my careless...
Zhyen picked me up at the train station with my boss-chrisr&bought me to somewhere else. he is the 1 who said I look like my mum, will she feel happy after this?(spoilt her reputation.-she always care on.lolx) after so, he brought me to choose&pay for my working shoes & pants. how paiseh was I that time?

Ginza- Japanese restaurant, my working place was next on. env here very nice&of course the menu prices very fantastic too. lolx. get an interview by big boss and get dinner in the restaurant with other waiting staff.Im only the girl staff here& only know chris wont hire girl staff usually. met an ex tarcian 07' senior here who is my collegue. feel very fishy when chat with him for so long with cantonese and only knw he's frm JB and couldnt speak it well after that. Ranger!!!its cool man!!!!big boss fetched me home with this(should only will be home waiting for Zhyen finish his working at 1st)...wondering how many nice cars being seated during this 1/2 yr in Uk?hm...hm.. feel comfort the time reached home, and again very paiseh...he let his room out for me..haiz...

to be cond..... ;)

things in mind~~

2009-09-26T20:40:00.002+08:00

drafted this for some time& not able to get chance to upload after bck frm Europe and London. Just feel moody and tired to walk around in London, felt something needed to boost energy to further on my trip/ sleep for whole day without bothering any matter around.
time really flies..until I felt couldnt manage to cope with the changes around. felt abit lonely and confusing. is it because the incidents happened around me lately?or... everything goes blank in my mind now and for future as well. start missing family, buddies, friends, food,home etc...and without hesitation, the days in liverpool with u guys!!!days for scotland trip,Land's end trip..how long I would take to recover frm emo? moving towards rather than emo-ing there to reflash bck previous days, this is wat i can do isnt? The feeling I have now--

had been the countries and places that would like to go for in my life..esp NETHERLANDS!!!whoa~~like this country since primary and the autumn season in Paris!! really awesome and marvelous!!feel grateful had been stepping on so many countries when I only 22!!! just feel regret couldnt get myself visit the tulip farm which tulip is my favourite plant and lavender farm in southest of UK. learnt few languages eg Italy and really gain knowledge through this europe trip. feel happy going to have my days in belfast for autumn season which i had dreamed before and I have made it during my uni life(thought it may take many yrs to realise my dream..ekeke)

thanks for everyone to cherish my days in liverpool~~mayyi, esmee, lee min, ellena, yen, chiun siew, ckeat, elwes, jack,si yuan...etc feel grateful to know u----all the best there and do take good care!!waiting for our reunion in msia!!!muackssss

last module for degree

2009-09-01T00:45:00.003+08:00

the time i should...scratching my head on book and im here now so hardworking on random blogging!!!!!gonna have my last module exam tmr!!!!~better give me a slap~feel so reluctant for leaving+ moody to ready for exam+wish to go for festival+get more time to be with friends=weird feeling I have now...how should i describe for it?

feel really warm to receive sms frm mummy when studying just now.only realise how long have been didnt skype and msn with them.here there are"girl.the luggage get shipped bck ald?those important doc must keep properly esp the passport.dun left it in luggage and ship it bck,you stil need to use it.must put properly!dun be so careless,forget this and that.must take good care of yrself." frankly,i have forgotten abt it and luckily my luggage stil here ;P chat with them through sms, and get a reply of 'dun nervous,relax wow,dun think so much and sleep early' when telling her gonna sit for last module exam, may not able to get 2nd upper for degree and feel very sorry because of a big mistake i have made here. this is wat mum usually ask me to do when i have exam,not asking me to study hard, go for sleep instead =.= and get a call frm uncle &aunty who live in canada,they just wish me to pass and stay happy&healthy. really will feel self-condemned sometimes. i ald cant get an excellent result on study performance as other cousins have made,only the 1 have to spend alots to afford my study butim the most who u gusy care on.

have missed out 2 chances of getting merit for diploma and advance because lack of 0.02.i really dont wish it will happen on me again and could get wat i want. how optimistic should i be for this?"我坚持的都值得坚持么我所相信的就是真的么如果我敢追求我就敢拥有么而如果都算了不要呢" quoted frm a song, this is wat in my mind now'......time to study again.....wish myself really have a luck and all the best~~~if u believe u can,u can

MISS MISS.....

2009-08-30T00:05:00.006+08:00

really do MISS MISS MISS MISS MISS mummy,buddies(knw who you are,no need mention ge la,hehe),friends.food.my lovely-sofa,bed,car, guitar
there's a list for me MUST EAT after bck to msia.here they are:
-kl: nasi lemak ayam, carrot o juice, beef burger(mr beh,when we go to eat again?yummy yummy,but then no supper time ;P), steamboat, sushi buffet, mussels, oysters,unagi,satay etc
-ipoh:dim sum.peanut dessert, secret recipe, assam laksa, thai food,home cooked food,hakka mee, red bean ice, egg tart,wan tan mee etc
-kuantan&kuala rompin:seafood!!!curry mee,otak otak,lagsang etc etc etc etc etc etc etc

feel abit dizzy after finish reading the list?susu,yenyi,ah bek, zhang, khien,beh, agnes,kalvan, u guys must get ready for it o...yummy yummy..here we go!!!!wait me back!!!slurp slurp~~~my saliva has to be out of control until nov...suffer~ing

here to say very thank you for u guys who email me, giving me concerns and lots of supports. really feel warm when receiving it always in these 3 months. it's great and very appreciate we all are stil keep in touch and nvr forget me. feel very sorry i couldnt able to attend some of friends' convo again in coming nov eventhough we have dealed before that we have to attend it together on waiting me bck frm summer course. in addition,i have missed alots of gatherings and celebrations with u guys...really very sorry because of the decision i have been made.
susu, '冒着被狗追的危险爬墙壁出来，在漆黑的夜晚躺在儿童游乐场看星星，荡秋千，爬架子...我想和我一起做那么调皮的事情的好友都还记得吧！' of course,it will nvr be deleted frm our memories isnt?hehe..and as wat i rmb(suprise that i stil rmb and recover abit frm forgetful?haha..), these just a part of wat we have done?haha...we should list 'em down in a day when we are free ^.^ we really did alots of naughty things, very funny,it's sweet and will smile all the way when retrospecting to the past now..
i will attend the gatherings, plans, trips, sing k and other programmes u guys ready for me once i arrive bck to msia..promise!!!if not spider breaks her two invisible legs le ;P

actually there's alots of ppl ask me,do u really need this job to earn money,come bck to msia and meet us?the ans actually no and i really do miss u guys. yet, I have a weird thinking in mind since dunno when.i would like to try my best not to depend on family too much to afford my study exepenses. ya,it's not necessary for me to do tht according family financial but..i stil stubborn on my weird concept ;P did some part time jobs since f5 not only gaining experience and also moving toward concept into reality,get many polls against tho =.= get loan frm my biggest ah long-TARC which ald started chasing hard after me for the obligation now to remind myself i have responsibility to own. mummy,i just wish i could prove to myself i can make it and live independently and explore in different way of life with my own. the bird will stil flying home after finish exploring.thx for yr support,mummy, i LOVE u!!!you are always my good fren and idol......

it's time to say goodbye for everything and look forward to future....wat had happened in my life, sweet and sour memories will be locked in my heart last forever............................................

time to say goodbye....

2009-08-29T00:47:00.003+08:00

reflash bck to the day i arrived uk for study with excitement and now,i have almost completed my course and is going to leave here..how's up and down of my feeling now?here will b my life of being a student ends..how it will gonna b for the next?alots of question actually need to think for my future..well,let it to be..

Liverpool,an amazing city i have stayed for 3months.thx GOD for giving me a chance to step on UK and gaining a great experience in my life.i will nvr nvr forget it.alots of programmes waiting for us for these days b4 leaving..appreciate and enjoy every moment we have left and it's gonna be fun!!!hooray!!!guys,rocks ya ^.^

last module exam will be on next tues..wish myself luck on doing well. i really dun wish another regret once again in study life...my study will officially completed on 1st sept '09.and and and it's party time at night!!!!waiting for it..yea yea ;)

will be going to euro trip on 4th sept and back to london on 18sept. will be going to belfast for working on 23rd sept. it's a challenge to me isnt?take flight to there&get to the destination by own, everything gonna be new to me again.will try my best explore this city beside busy working ;) cant consider alone there,but i would like to try have such “一个人吃饭旅行(到处)走走停停，也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心” this kind of life..isnt interesting to have a try? ;) really need to thanks to him from getting a job for me, settle everything and will going to take care of me there..

feel hard on leaving this place..full of memories here..the environment, weather, education, attractions, people....greatful I could be stepped on here once in life.......believe there will be another step in future........

Life@LIverpool

2009-08-15T21:50:00.003+08:00

time flies..left 3 weeks of being a student in my life...do whatever i want, do whatever i can,do whatever i wish without any appearance of 'REGRET' in milestone of my life...

met a bunch of new friends during scotland trip (31st July-4th Aug).wat can i say,it' seems like abit late to know u guys..blessing tht i stil could make it before leaving here..u really did cheer my life up here with bringing alots of funs,craz-inessssss!!!!guys,really rocks!!!!

scotland trip,it's thankful frm yen n i that couldnt manage to get the ticket to Edinburgh which organised by JMU student union and we had joined this roads adventure trip!!!do enjoyed every moment we have together!thanks for GOD giving me such nice, interesting, amazing, wonderful trip and meeting up u all..we have succeeded on the challenges during the trips and of coz really thank you to our chairman/organiser/navigator-jack and the kee siao driver-elwes.frankly,freedom with interesting-i could managed to feel so during this trip-without any formal itinerary as we follow the tour usual,with the natural scene views that let ppl feel relax, enjoy etc.排山倒海，爬山涉水样样齐 也足证了--外国的月亮特别圆；星星特别明亮；清澈见底地河溪；靛蓝广阔的海洋；像似梦幻泡影的美景；淳厚清香的威士忌 etc etc....u will understand jay's song well after went through these places..wish it could be last forever...stil on holiday mode during the week after bck frm there..my heart has left in john o' groats or other places else in scotland?

we stil able to make our plan goes on even we should damn rushing for assg that time and before they leave to belfast--steamboat.yupie yaya!!!a simple but nice,warm and full with enjoyment dinner instead of helping u guys for the clearance of food actually...

taking once

2nd taking with a stranger passed by--aminah(elwes)

3rd taking--curi tangkap

here we were-4th taking!!!finally succeed!!!

the steamboat we had

another day again...it seems like a celebration of completing our exam instead celebration of handing in our assgs tho...it considers as supper bbq for normal yet it's dinner for us!!!'doing sth crazy' again...haha...after have a fun on bbq-ing, we have looked forward to watch perseid meteor show with various assumptions on the 'things' over the sky. however, we managed to see the meteor streaks through the night. another different wonderful matter get in LIverpool..

the food for bbq-ing

bbq-ing

appreciate every moment I have now as a student, but then can without exam? it will be perfect on learning without any exam assessment status...

new blog

2009-08-15T21:47:00.002+08:00

another new blog for me after xanga and wretch..kinda like wretch very much yet dunno wat happen on it lately that i couldnt manage the view my articles contents but with the title of the post there.anyway,it's new for me to be here. ^.^