Monday 22 March 2010

giving up~~

giving up-just like a warning/signal telling me the things which happened ard me these days....usually, the principe that i used to persist to the last moment i have until it really needs to be certified...i would have a mind that is it really no other solutions can be solved instead of giving up?

isnt fate depend on us(認為只有自己才是自己生命的主人)????????y.....our future really couldnt be resolved by our own?no blaming to others...just only can describe this type of difficullties as shen bu you ji....this life calls so...frens who are in trouble, i only can know n do nth here...just let them keep frustrated,sad n scratching their head on troubles...feel useless sometimes eventhough knowing tht im not supergirl which everything i can settle...my fren has to give up his studies&going to overseas for working bcoz of some big troubles keep happening....which he really wish to cond his study and he feel so resist to leave everything here....

giving up as a barista that a job im really interested at due to some reasons..this is the option i can do if comparing with keep arguing with mum and aunty bcoz of this.....actually they knw i really impossible keep sitting at home and studying there...im not really understand the reasons mum keep not allowing me to do this n that lately...whr is my mum who gives me alots of freedom gone?keep arguing when comes to those stuff,keep giving up those i like to do....these r the sources of frustration come frm yet i can do nth..

option of giving up-should i conf further the 4last ICSA papers???becomes my contradiction rather than an aim as b4...just get a feel of giving up...........

is it the rational option of giving u up?should i really angry at u instead of giving u chances have those unreasonable reasons to hurt me rite?or shall i really have a talk with u as the step i should move forward 1st as frens suggest me?should or shouldnt i???y the things looks like simple yet quite complicated and couldnt get the source of pro, i really no idea to settle it....n realised act get the feel towards more than wat i think b4...tear really drops for these nites after have a clear pic frm beginning til the end..not dare to tell anything about u n me to frens as the way i always release to, they quite angry on this...better keep silent ba and just let it gone...anyway,wat in my mind appreciate those happiness u given me rather thn this matter.............no longer keep sorry and saying yrself too bad to me pls~~~

Wednesday 3 March 2010

New chap of months~march

Finally ends of feb n approaching to another mth which there’s quite lots of changes on me.
A new mth, new env, new career/study prospects and almost everything gonna be change. Unemployed (giving cutter fish to boss for eating) to be a part time student status…going to get into kl life(hustle&bustle)…seeking for part time job…it may sounds llike abit ‘bai ga lui’ and doing nth here beside stil studying,yet this is a golden chance to think twice on wat I want to do in future….
Ljmu convo just held on last sun.. really attended it with an exhausted n sleepy look bcoz of the penang trip the days b4, rushing bck frm penang n heading to kl on the day b4… felt regret to let myself on this look..haha. feeling great to meet u guys there again although left elwes amg us…the moment we are meeting.just felt that we are really awake frm uk dreams n standing on real world now..too crowded n really hard to get friends yet stil memorable to me…thks for the buddies attending n the celebration at the same nite.

Jing yein,yr going to leave on 15th …waiting u at this year end n we hang out again tht time…rmb my souvenirs(many kiwis to me)hehe…I love them so much…n also love u…do take very good care,all the best n really enjoy the life that u want there…it must b a great experience!!!dun let pui mun n I get a green hat ah,but red hat stil acceptable le..haha… …rmb rmb rmb miss us o….

Instant noodle relationship ends…lolx..i knw actually stil owe quite some of u an explain…I just can tell u as to date tht I stil rmb whn yr asking…lo mazi,susu…no worry,can said 90% version u heard lolx…no worry of me,it will b ok for me although stil bit down n sad n wat he said actually really let me got a feel on slapping him n act like a stupid on overall. susu, read yr blog..yaya,agree.tho really wish love can be settled with either love/not love, but really as the favourite song we love "没那么简单” really not such easy yet not complicated too..'看到她好像没什么似的,还是傻傻的,开开心心的' is the best way i think to further on my life..
At this moment, I dun think I really can trust any abt love and relationship (jing yein,u knw wat’s goin on le just getting serious now only.aiks)Yet, it doesn’t mean I can get away frm this fault after thinking twice. It may the problem on telling him frankly wat im thinking at now. Release would be the much better option that hating..it enough just to rmb wat good u have given me.would respect to this decision and just accept to cond be fren as he wishes to do. No point on blaming but 及时行乐,.
Lo ma zi,I knw yr more down than me now, since it had been together for long time.dont forget u stil have us neither telling not to be so sad.sometimes, it may better not to know the ans instead of knowing,..the fact may cruel to own. y not to let own leaving with the hapinesss tht left rite?as Chinese proverb,”new doesn’t coming in if old doesn’t goin to leave”,get a new lou dou for me soon..k?hehe..
everything gonna be fine..i believe ;)

Tuesday 2 March 2010

sagittari~ian

found it n would like to share here: hm...feel quite comfort and accurate with wat describing(those highlighted parts) on me here...look at it whether it also works on the ppl who also sagittarius ard u??check it out..;)


射手座
  
  
  射手女生可能永远也不会知道自己想要的是什么,但是她一直都很清楚,她不想要的是什么。
  
  她喜欢做幕后的看客,冷冷地,静静地看着一切,在她眼里,一切都在她的意料之中,她并不觉得有什么是新奇的, 如果她表现得新奇,那是因为她觉得应该这样做。她像一个看戏的人,永远置身事外。
  
  你不要责怪她冷漠,这是她保护自己的唯一方式。她像一只刺猬,随时竖起自己身上的刺,但她的刺不会伤人,她只是用来武装自己。
  
  她不敢要太多的爱,她怕享受完爱之后,剩下的只是加倍的痛。所以当别人对她过度宠爱时,她不但不会欣喜,反而会惊惧地逃走,她不知道怎样回报别人对她的爱, 如果你得到她的喜爱,那是因为她已经知道如何面对,如何回报了。
  
  她追求那种君子之交淡如水的境界。
  
  她懂得爱人,但她不习惯爱人,她知道爱往往伴随着恨,而恨,是太沉重的伤痛 也是太容易让人疲倦的感情。她不想痛,也就懒得去恨,于是,为了防范恨与痛的到来, 她只好选择不爱,即使爱,也是淡淡的,冷冷的。别怪她,她是真的不知道如何专注。
  
  她有时也很虚伪。不要指责她,她之所以选择虚伪,那是你勉强她做她不愿做但又拒绝不了的事, 习惯承诺,也不懂得拒绝,她最擅长的是难为自己。她不想你难过,只好令自己难过。
  
  总是固执认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力,她将自己想得太坚强,而把别人想得太脆弱。 老是担心自己的行为会让别人受到伤害。她不知道,受伤的其实是自己。只是她不知道如何表现出来, 她迷糊得像别人所认为的那样,将自己当成一个百毒不侵的人。
  
  
  别以为她很洒脱,很多时候,她其实是放不下的-——她比任何人都要敏感,都要细腻,但她不会让你知道,她明白,即使你知道了,也是无济于事。 她的心是把握不住的风,她渴望像风一样单纯而自由。
  
  她不是不想平静, 她只是找不到平静的理由,她一生都无法明确自己在人世要扮演的角色,她只有不停地寻求,寻求自己最终的目的。
  
  如果她找到了,她会毫不犹豫地停下来, 从此放弃心灵的漂泊。很遗憾,她永远也不会满足,她的追求永不停止。她的心再累,无法逼迫自己放弃梦想,梦想是她唯一的支撑点
  
  千万别让她失望。因为她学不会原谅,她非常渴求完美,虽然她知道世间没有绝对的完美, 但,她有绝对追求完美的执着。你若令她失望,她会不可挽回地离开,即使她的心在滴血,即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命,她也绝不回头。
  
  
  那个时候,你在她脸上所看到的,是让人寒心的决绝。即使她还在你的身边,她的心也早就离你十万八千里,你看不到她的恨,但是你会感受到比恨还让人痛苦的冷淡。她的离开是心灵的离开。
  
   她可以在前半分钟对你好得让你受宠若惊,也可以在后半钟冷漠得让你不可接受。不要问她为什么这样善变,她也不知道。当你看到她在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时,千 万不要迷惑,不管她看起来是多么的疯狂,她内心其实是冷静的,她比你们任何一个旁观者更知道如何处理快乐与悲伤,她只是习惯-——也可以说是喜欢将一切都 变得疯狂
  
  因为她觉得这是义务,也是权利,她是制造气氛的能手,她的一句俏皮话会让一切轻快起来,但她的一声叹息又会将一切都弄得很沉重。她总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与忧郁.
  
  她并不如你们看到的那么快乐,同样,也不如你们看到的那么忧伤,只是,她忧郁时, 欢带上快乐的面具,而当她快乐时,忧郁又不肯轻易放过她。
  
   在她的世界里,盛着的不是快乐的源泉,而是她不愿在人前滴下的泪水。你看到的她,笑起来像一个孩子,你有时会认为她天真得像是童话里走出来的天使。但 是,你若有心,你会看到她沉静时脸上挥之不去的忧伤,还有她的眼底,竟那么凝重地积压着一种看破红尘的味道。她只有在午夜无人的时候,才会完全释放自 己。她不会在众目睽睽之下表露她的无助,她的彷徨,她的沧桑。
  
  她心里的,是永远流不尽的泪。你所看到的坚强,只是她在竭力掩饰的脆弱。



射手座男人
  射手座的男人
  射手座的图型,是个半人半马的弓箭手,用这样的图型来形容射手座的男人真是太贴切了。拿着弓箭的手永远瞄准远方,然后骏马一般向前奔驰,那就是

   射手座的男人兴趣很多,涉猎很广泛,但恐怕每一样都不会研究得很彻底。正因为他的兴趣广泛,跟很多人都可能有交集,因此他会有许多不同类型的朋友。有的 朋友陪他聊政治,有的陪他打球,有的跟他一块作生意。他很忙,很少有射手座的男人会给人一种闲着没事做的感觉。尤其当他突然对什么新鲜事物发生兴趣的时 侯,可能全心投入好一阵子,其它的事情(包括你)全被暂时抛在脑后去了。

  当你刚开始跟一位射手座男人交往时,会有一段蜜月期——你是最让他感兴趣的人。之后,你是否能让他保持热度,就得看你的本事了,因为让一个射手座的男人把心思长期专注于谈情说爱上,的确是很困难的事。

   他是个绝对的乐观主义,心中有无数远大的理想,却经常容易忽略眼前的问题,因此常在加速向前冲的时侯,一不小心就栽到水沟里去了,在他身边的女人偶尔提 醒一下他的粗心是很好的,但如果在他对你高谈阔论他远大计划时,泼他一盆冷水,那就真是让他讨厌极了。其实,你真的不必太过担之他的安危,因为乐观的 射手座男子,并不容易被一些小挫败击倒,反而事实的教训会帮助他成长,让他下一次小心点。

  很多射手座的男人都有点不信邪,当你 厉的告诉他什么事不可行的时侯,他却偏要试一下才甘心。我不知道你碰到这种情况了没有?如果有,请千万不要落井下石,在旁边说风凉话,你当心他会恼羞成怒 哦!最好换一种方式,你可以说:你做的比我原先预计的好多了,你真有一套!下一次只要把改一下,保证万无一失。

  他肯定会觉得你太够意思,太了解他了。射手座的男人很少真的觉得沮丧。万一不幸发生这种情况,当然就是你表现的时侯啰!

   很多人说射手座的男人花心,其实我倒觉得应该说他是很喜欢跟很多女人真心交往,花言巧语的欺骗不是他的方法。前面我就说过,他是很容易与人发生交集的, 对女生当然也是一样,一旦他感觉跟某个女生有些投契的地方,他就会很愉快,很真诚的付出他的友谊和感情。其实射手座的男人愈成熟,就愈希望找到一个真正与 他心灵相投的伴侣,只可惜他们多半都不是细细观察,慢慢投入的类型,因此总是很容易开始,很容易失望,于是很容易结束,射手座的男人很少会存心始乱终弃 的。

  就像是一壸茶倒满了很多杯子,你能说哪一杯不是茶吗?对每一个人他都很真诚,如想要真正拥有他,只有把自己变成个超级大杯子,让他把所有的茶全倒进来啰!

  首先,你要兴致勃勃的听他说远大的计划,偶尔提醒他一些细节,让他惊讶你的智能。

  第二,你要会陪他玩,多数射手座男子对户外运动都很有兴趣,当他带你去参加社交场合时,千万别摆张老k脸。

   第三,射手座男人很爱跟朋友辩论,你要很感兴趣的听,然后在适当时机帮个腔,使他理论立于不败之地。更重要的是,千万不要限制他的自由。对于多数射手座 的男人来说,自由是他们的宝贝,不自由毋宁死,他爱你是真的,愿意和你厮守终生也是真的,但是他不会因此放弃他追求自由的权利。射手座的男人,绝不是 可以被拴在腰带上的丈夫,这一点你一定不要忘记。

  射手座的男往往不会详细的向你报告行踪,尤其是事前,他更不会一副征求你批准的态度。如果你东问西问,他很有翻脸的可能。

  你愈给他自由,他愈坦白。

  有时侯射手座男人的直率也会让人有点受不了,他的直肠子有时会伤你的心,有时会让你下不了台。如果想要愉快的相处,你必须学习适应,而且欣赏他不会拐弯的坦率性格。

   当然你也有自由发展你的世界。他通常忙碌的没时间去限制你。想要欺瞒一个射手座的男人,是件很容易的事,但是如果让他发现,将会造成无法弥补的裂痕,是他最重视的相处之道。他会尊重你的自由一如尊重他己的一样,你会有很大的空间发挥自己的事业和兴趣。但是我仍然建议你多方面尽量配合他,否则他 什么时侯掉进了别人的情网你都不知道