sick@.@

the thing i hate in my life...which let me feel like out of control,just lying on bed doing nothing that wish to do...cant fun..cant play..if sick,better kill me off directly its better than torturing me...

if gonna tell the reason i sick....will be unbelievable?food poisoning bcoz of the instant noodle....the feeling really very bad....feeling not well for whole day and at last keep vomitting the hour b4 finish working last nite....adrian asked me those symptoms i had and said it just totally same like dory, my collegue who get food poisoning also last week and get sick leave for 5 days.and wat i had eaten and the time for meal also the same...we are the last 1 who get the instant noodle...

stomach totally empty after keep vomiting for whole day food...no appetite at all for food now...better kill me off again...either feel wanna vomit once see whatever food in front / feel vomit after eaten...better not to waste food again...tried to get some light food,ends up only can lying on bed even sitting will let me felt so..haiz...headache,dizziness.,feel impotence.....i want my energy back and go for fun ah....not lying on bed ah,it's enjoyful sometimes to do so tho...want to get nice nice food with collegues ah...sick leave for a day has cause me 42pound gone....can i recover by tmr?no money can let me waste so...mr leng zai $,come bck to my side,ok?suddenly missing someone seriously, really wish the person could beside me now..again,it's a silly thought....im starting to think childish again...

i think i really not suitable to stay in belfast...seems like so many things since arrived here...nvm..countdown-ing going bck to msia now...

law of attraction~~BELIEVE

i believe...sending strong positive msg to myself...sunny days ahead soon ;)

have to start for my new job tmr onwards, i believe everything gonna be fine ;)

finally get this book 'law of attraction' by michael j.losier in a cheaper price and for sure i bought!!!yupie~~~it's useful to me and suyen, cant deny isnt it?hehe....strongly recommend it...

will be my last day for holiday..no time for me wandering around...but i believe it will be interesting days for this coming month...^.^ lee mian, nvr 4get wat u said-our spirit:nvr give up!!!ya...everything gonna be fine,this is wat im telling myself now...flashing back every pictures in my pc~diploma,advance,liverpool and family&frens~~~it such memorable memories for me..miss grandma..i really miss her...and those who gave me many sweet and sour days although we ends up now just like an enemy. and i stil very dispute to hear any news about u...neither angry nor...sometimes too care of a person will just make yourself miserable...miss sokyee, pui mun u guys too,when is our next trip?miss the genting trip o...smelly bek,beh....always zat me until no day no nite but care me always...really long time din crazy with u guys ald....it's time to miss all of u ;)

thanks for my sweety mummy who really cheer me up&support me always..aunties,family members all called up, msn,fb-ing to persuade me to further my study on master...apa apa teknik semua pun keluar...just let me keep laughing on here... the main thing is,really let me felt touch u guys really know wat im thinking&worrying for eventhough nvr tell u all b4 since im so stubborn on it...just let me felt wanna cry tht day..told mummy wat is my plan for and ends for this persuading war for a week..if not my ears and eyes cond get tortured..

as wat i know frm sista, our house has renovated again&almost the furnitures get a new 1..even pillow,bedsheets, the main gate&windows everything...as wat mummy's reason~~welcome me home @.@ always given those weird reason...wondering could i recognise my home when bck to ipoh? besides that, thanks for waiting me back&home and then get for our family trip..thanks for giving me a warm family which nvr left me alone.....

wandering around~~

another nice video to watch...dunno wat's going on me lately..just keep listening those sentimental songs(left all the R&B, hiphop songs behind)...abit moody...likes everything not going smoothly...

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gk2oPC7o1aw&feature=related

finally found this mv bck...like this song,touch and meaningful...seldom watch these sad songs mv, scare my tears will just drop out easily...but now...keep trying to watch, it still unable to make me cry out....suffer...just like a valcano will boom out anytime....i hate myself how to become so emo...emo until i couldnt recognise myself...get a haircut and get another new job..new env soon,cheer up myself and everything gonna be fine, i believe....i must....;)

fortunate/unfortunate

it's the day should consider as lucky or unlucky? the time i awake on morning, found my right eyes red,swollen and look carefully on it, saw it like really abnormal as normal eye and different with those infections i had before. worried and called u up,susu and get an advice better go 2 get consultant frm doc.. feel scare and blur dunno wat should I do beforehand. get the student insurance card, money and hp then went to pharmarcy and recommended to nearest hospital( there's no clinic here, weird isnt?)belfast city hospital-nice visit attraction. @.@so many procedures b4 get towards a doc.. and need to wait at the A&E dept...(horrible dept after I felt so after IICU)geramnya...realised my insurance term has been expired few days ago meanwhile waiting there..gosh!!!i was wondering tht time, if really as wat the travel agents told us b4, 50pound at least u get a doc...spending over b4 start to work to earn money bck...

the another thing happened while waiting. get a called frm Ginza boss,said wanna hire me pulak coz there's a gal performance not so ideal after i get a job at another restaurant and will start soon...which should I choose?
Ginza: nicer pay, shorter working hours,the working place more far abit
HUngry rest: less pay, longer working hours have to work until 1am and walked bck alone

headache headache.....
till my turn finally after 1 hour has gone...a nice and pretty doc..haha...mood also better isnt?haha..after she gave me some consultancies, she told me so:"u have better eye vision for infected eye than yr normal eye'..swt....
after all over the consultancies and get the medicine, felt unbelievable when i asked her where should I pay(thought at least there's a payment counter). she just gave me a response like wat alieny language im speaking...it's funny for her expression!!!haha..she replied me so, it's free!!and u can come bck anytime if stil hvn recover..hooray!!!!!i saved money again...happy happy!!! after home, another freeze day hide myself on the bed with thick duvet and reading novel..nice rest day...whee~~~